Random

3am in the morning is the best time to write a blog, i just feel so philosophical. I was just thinking how its a human instinct  to not appreciate the smaller things in life. We believe that extravegent gestures are the only way to make us feel 'worth it'. But we tend to over look the smiles, the small but meaningful compliments, the 'good mornings' from strangers, the laughter we have every day. Isn't all this enough to be classed an extravegent gesture that we all should appreciate more. Meh, i dunno its like we pay attention to the wrong things and just hope for a bigger gesture.

Anyways thats only one of my thoughts for tonight. But enough of the deep thinking. In other news i'm waking up early to buy j.cole tickets! Eeek i'm so excited i've always wanted to see him live. I always see j.cole being classed as a 'boring' rapper but thats only because he doesn't constantly rap about how much money he makes or fucking bitches. He actually does talk about deep situations - for example his song 'Lost Ones' this is still one of my favourite songs, the way he emerges a deep situation to a whole bunch of punchlines is quite amazing. I really do hope i get to see him live.

Umm, a life update? Well i'm currently facing the complications of writing a personal statement, 'selling yourself' is much harder than i though. Umm I'm bored of college, the same routine every single day just makes me feel a type of way. I know im going to study English and Philosophy in uni, but i have no idea what career path i want to take. I slightly wish i was one of those people that have blogging as a job lol. But i would also love to do some humanitarian work in the future, possibly in Africa? Would love that. Anyways lets wait for a couple of years and see how my life works out (i hope i never forget my blogspot email and password!) 

Also, i know im young but i think about marriage a lot. I just want my own family, isn't it weird that our other half is out there creating memories of their own which we will know about one day? Awesome. 

This blog spot was a whole bunch of stuff but i just had the urge to babble on.

What a random pose!? Aha.