2018

I've just rediscovered this blog after five years! I was such a fucking emotional teenager for no good enough reason, reading back on these posts (mainly the unpublished ones) i am fucking CRINGING. Why did i act like such an adult? All my deep thoughts as if i actually knew what love was at the time. HAHAHAHA. Life was so easy five years ago i wish i knew that now!

Its 2018 now, i turn 22 in nine days. I still feel lost in terms of what i want to do in my life, i did go on to study English Language and Literature (not philosophy, thank fuck) but i really really really wish i thought about university more before i went. I wish i took a gap year and figured out what i truly enjoyed and wanted to do before putting myself in 9grand debt that i probably will never be able to pay back.

I work part time in retail, i enjoy it to an extent but do not want to be stuck there forever. In terms of relationships, i had my first REAL heartbreak after being with someone for two years. It sucked but i've learnt that when you go through shit that makes it feel like your world is ending but it really really isn't. As you grow older, you learn to get through shit and power through climbing and kicking all those obstacles out of the way.

I've decided that continue to use this blog as a personal diary to see my journey! really wish i wrote more posts about my day because it was really nice reading that weekend post and actually remember being at the J.Cole concert!